The End of the day is almost near....

Ok so dad had a shower today... his meds are making it hard for us to get him to the restroom.. I know probably not what you wanted to hear... but you know what bugs me? I am really tired of butting heads with mom.. yes she has alzhiemers.. but not that bad.. little forgetful .. and I usually just repeat myself.. .but what we are butting heads about is how she treats dad.. Its awful she yells at him and calls him names and my gawd it pisses me off. She will hurry and eat and leave him at the table by himself.. I can guarantee that if the roles were reveresed dad would not be doing that to her... For crying out loud mom he cant even dress himself!!! Yes stuff like wow this really upset me... she has oxygen so she drags a hose around anyway she dropped a reciept on the floor in front of her... she tells dad pick that up... so he starts reaching for this and reaching for that and moving the kitchen chair and moving her hose and she is telling him no the reciept the paper pick it up then she gets upset ... and i hear this so i go in there and pick it up and walk away... pick the thing up yourself mom geez.. no I didnt say that but i was thinking it... does she really hate him that much? I know they had problems lots of problems but really he doesnt event know any of that anymore.. he doesnt know his kids and barely knows her... I could go on... but instead Im gonna get a cup of coffee ... and say good night to you all... Ill let you know in the morning how the night went.. lol before long you all will know me as well as I know myself... and yes I ramble on and no I am not using punctuations properly if any at all. lol because this is me... letting it all out and letting my fingers catch up with my mind.. I will however use spell check.. lol night everyone =)

The Day is half over... grrr

Ok so I woke this morning... more refreshed than I had been.. grabed a cup of coffee... note: Danielle is addicted to coffee. I was up maybe 15 mins before my day started.. Mom woke up.. lol... I usually like to have a couple hours before anyone gets up.. lets me drink my coffee and read emails... check myspace.. read my rss feeds. You know the typical morning stuff. So I fixed her coffee, let her rotties out, chatted a few... then went back to my feeds. Then its time to get dad his meds and walk him to the restroom. Dad is very very ill. But we deal. Now I suppose I should check into my class and begin my assignments... While still in the back of my mind hoping i passed the class that ended yesterday.. lol... started out strong in that class but by the third week mom was in hospital and so that put me behind a week.. and 3 days during my catch up and cramming because the class is ending I had to call the ambulance for dad... yes this is a typical few weeks for me... Dad still isnt up.. at least his brief was changed.. I better go in there and roll him out of bed and dress him and get him moving around or his sundowners will keep him up all night... ill check back later.. you know this blog is going to be very useful to me... I dont have anyone to vent on so just typing all this is already helping. Thank you =)

My History...

I have heard about blogging as many have. Not really reading any. But I needed a place where noone knew me and I could vent my frustartions at unknowing participants. LOL So here I am... and I hope you all welcome me with open arms.

First my history... I will be leaving some stuff out to protect the innocent or the not so innocent... LOL ... I am a recovering drug addict... Meth was my drug of choice... in the 80's it was so accessable... during that time I had a little girl and I thank my life for her... She is the reason I got clean and moved on to "try" to lead a productive life.

To make a long story short ... I got clean and ended up finally meeting a wonderful man and got married. Currently I am going to college online and taking care of my two elderly unwell parents.

So this is where we will start. I just need a place where I can go... =)